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Though I have experienced pain of all kinds over the past 8 years; I have at the same time eagerly pursued challenges and achieved success at levels that many experienced mentors and professionals have doubted my resolve.  My goals have constantly placed myself amongst peers that challenge as well as motivate my mental durability for as long as I can remember.  I'm not sure exactly what kept my determination for success so rigid when I awoke in a hospital bed inside of the Intensive Care Unit at Baylor hospital in Dallas, almost 8 years ago.  I was surrounded by specialist doctors from every realm - psychologists who said I may not ever recover brain capacity that I once had, surgeons who said I might never walk again, and neurologists who proclaimed that my brain damage would undeniably have permanent impact on my mental performance levels.  I remember thinking that for all the bad news that surrounded my recovery schedule, one of few things was guaranteed. I could only get improve from that point.  After several months of intensive mental therapy performance testing it was determined that my brain was somehow recovering faster than almost any doctor would have dared to predict in the early stages after the car accident.  Still, my primary neuro-psychologist almost scoffed at my bold long-term goals. I would attend the University of Texas in Austin, I said.  It didn't matter this was a goal that I failed to achieve during high school.  I didn't care that I would have 1 and 2 hour surgeries scheduled almost every moth during my freshman year at Richland Community College.  I felt as if I would set a precident for the rest of my life based on how much I could accomplish in these first critical few years after an attrocious car accident nearly left me dead on the pavement on the intersection in front of my junior high school. It all felt too meaningful to to pass up.  
After I was accepted into the RTF program in the school of communication I felt like I was on the fast track to dreams that I had endeavered for since I was an adolescent.  The internet was a playground that I knew better than the computer multimedia teacher at my high school.  I was passionate for media presentations of all kinds.  I felt like the cutting edge of technology and entertainment met at a crossroad that ran through my bedroom on my computer screen.  i was sure that by surrounding myself with opportunities to create new media on the internet before even the web 2.0 revolution changed the way that most people looked at information in cyberspace would open doors that might otherwise go un-noticed.  I actually was the head moderator of a controversial message board and media bin for content surrrounding my own high school at the time of the terrible car accident that sent me to the hospital.  It was amazing when I finally found wi-fi access in the hospital that allowed me to address the community that was already filling our lhstudents.com message board and digital picture collection to the brim.  This was well before the age of facebook and twitter; if you can remember that once upon a time when the only personal online communication that could be relied upon was 1-on-1 instant message conversations or e-mail.  I was able to post pictures of myself at the hospital for those who couldn't make the visit themselves. I was able to answer questions that piled up from my high shool graduating class on our internet message board that I was already managing well before the trauma that struck me down so harshly.      

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BEGIN REFLECTION UT UNDERGRADUATE
When I finally succeeded and was granted entry to the university, I felt like the world had suddenly become within grasp of my fingertips.  literally, through my fingers, on the world wide web.  I knew how influential utexas.edu and internet research projects based thereupon had been in the past, but not even I could have guessed how fortunate I would be in finding a role as an undergraduate student working as an intern at a brand new internet streaming movie & audio project : ACTLab TV.  Our goal was noble and our spirits were high, but we found out the hard way that it's difficult to change the world of internet video & online TV with a few semesters' worth of open-source programming initiatives.  Still, I was most certainly able to find a voice for my own personal projects: those including bringing world-famous electronic music artists and DJs to our on-campus FM radio broadcast at KVRX Student Radio.  I found out quickly that the aims of both my ACTLab TV/Radio  project as well as the goal of my RPM manager position at the radio station shared many common interests.  The most obvious and important of which was to get previously un-known and un-heard artists as much publicity and promotion as well as live FM air time in one of the few towns in Texas that would even be interested in such eclectic talent, Austin. I was thrilled at the opportunity to use the web portfolio of our ACTLab online projects to share as much copyleft media across the web and into the universe as I could.  When an internationally-acclaimed electronic music performance act would come through town, I could offer them the chance to embrace both the Austin community directly as well as our diverse & widespread ACTLab online audience with live performance recordings broadcast on FM and the WWW at the same time.  
I felt lucky each time I took the radio air waves on my weekly radio show for many different reasons, but especially because I was so frequently dubbed the only distributor for new  independent electronic music producers in the state.  The only thing that stopped me from creativig an entirely new copyleft netlabel was the inevitably of graduation, because unfortunately, when you lose the status as the head manager of electronic music at a major college radio station like KVRX, the ease of collecting new music stops along with it.